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I’m at the point where I can’t even have an honest meeting with a new person, date, or whatever, because I’m thinking of someone else. How fucked up is that? I have passed up several opportunities for one thing or another, which I must admit is abnormal for a mid-20’s male.

How does one get over this feeling? Find a way to hate or be disgusted with the one you have your heart towards? I am certainly unwilling to give anyone else an open chance, so the “find someone new” theory will undoubtedly not work in this instance.