So I stayed up until past 11:30 last night (I work in the morning, mind you!) waiting for her to maybe sign onto AIM so we could chat again.. she never came on, so I just wrote it off and went to bed. I couldn’t find the remote control… again… so I slept with the TV on.. again.. which as far as I can remember, I watched Pulp Fiction and Final Destination 2, while sleeping, because I woke up at various parts of the movie. I got up this morning (5 minutes after I was supposed to be at work.. oops, i can drive fast!), and still couldn’t find the remote, so the TV is still on. =P
She had e-mailed me at 12:30 am, explaining her computer was being fickle (it’s an HP, I don’t disagree that is sucks).
I honestly didn’t think I would hear from her much, if at all.. she’s never had a “real” relationship it seems, so I think she’s over-cautious about getting into one. Being 2 hours driving distance away is only a minor obstacle, as is our slightly different work schedules.
What do I do? Try to pursue someone who’s slightly worried/afraid to do anything, or just let it all go? I really, really miss being in a relationship. I’m not afraid of committment, sacrifice, or compromise. I just miss being with someone. ;)
I’m not into drugs, heavy drinking, and I’m not much of a club person.. which pretty much omits about 95% of the population that is my age.. so it’s hard to find anyone that wouldn’t be discouraged by what I’m into, or not into.
I sort of miss the life I had when I worked a couple days a week, and just played EQ 60+ hours a week, sighs.. I’m not entirely unattractive looking, not fat or anything else that would keep the masses of women at bay.. I just, can’t find anyone, it seems. =(